Holy SNOW

It was a snow day here and apparently across BC. It is damn cold out too:) So cold I have seen no kids playing in the snow that says something. Being a child from Ontario canada, I say Bc'ers should be ashamed of their reaction to snow, sheesh. I would rather have snow that the rain.
I did see my doctor and she does think I have an ulcer she put me on Pariet and made an appointment for me to see Dr.Amson we hope to get a scope ASAP because I am loosing dark blood. That's all I need right now:(
Phil's dad John was just found to have a tumour in his stomach and it's positive and a low percentage of being able to get it out. So Mom(Anne) is having a hard time as is the rest of the family. So support and prayers are a blessing. Apparently his surgery should be in about 2-3 weeks. Gonna be a hard holiday season though.
Alden's anniversary of her loss is on the 4th. That is hard as well. December is becoming worse and worse of a month to me.
Ok things I have written to remember:
Movie I liked on Women's Network Nov 26/06 "Try To Remember"(2004) Gabrielle Anwar, Lisa Monroe(mystery & suspense)
Thinking about DJ, his newest tactic is to call me by my name and not by mom, and still with the fuck this and the fuck that & your not important to my life. The name thing bugged me the fisrt couple of times but now I truly don't care. Whatever he feels his angry little mind needs to do. Like I told him no matter what he calls me I am still his mom. Sarah wants her brother here for Christmas she misses him so much but he feels he has to hurt her to punish me. I want here too. If I had nothing else that would be the best present itself.
He is just so insesant on blaming me for kicking him out, but I wanted just a weekend to calm myself down and think straight. I got scared when he got angry, but it could be I reacted that way becauseI do tend to jump easily because of past abuses. I realize& take responsability for maybe not handling it a better way. Upon further reaction I'm sure there could have been better ways to deal that would have worked for both of us. But he got overreactive as well & shut the door completely because of one bad weekend & hehas to take responsability for his choices. I do love him & miss him. Wish he were home but he needs to make his own choices & I will still will always, have door open for him and a place in my heart. I really do miss him :'(
I want to say I was very sad on my bday When the jury came back and said guilty to 1st degree murder on 2 theories aggravated rape and aggravated buglary and put Christopher McCowen in Jail. I am so hurting for that man. I just don't believe he raped and killed that lady. Day 6 Jury was deadlocked on Cape Cod. One female juror was replaced for personal reasons. Defense was refused mistrial by the judge, and jury was sequestered for 2 days.

Written Changes

Yes this is all stuff written again since my last entry so is a little here and there ok maybe alot here and there...Legacy of Pain-Montreal massacre murder of 14 women, Engineering school he went there around 4pm. Before shooting he shouted "I hate feminists" It was 6pm before SWAT made it into the building. I would like to know what took so long for them to get in. I was surprised to see the picasso painting pulled of the block at the 11th hour which was estimated to sell at over 60 million. Has something to do with a family being forced to sell it to nazi's or something like that. I missed the back story on that. But was surprised, as it was huge news it was selling.I am a fan of Michael Buble and love seeing him doing a commercial for Children's Hospital with his song I wanna come home. I love that song and Children's Hospital is one of my things I support financially. They saved DJ's life and did a major surgery on Mary.We all saw this coming, Brittney Spears filed for divorce and the next day her husband Kevin Federline filed for sole custody of both kids. *shakes head*Actor Daniel Baldwin was arrested in San Antonio, California on suspicion of stealing an SVU. Hello the guy is rich, well know, handsome, doesn't need to steal an SVU I so don't buy this. Someone screwed up on this one I think!I like this quote "When will you learn to look past what you see?" Mary PoppinsPizza came to North America in the 1900's with the immigrants was first made to represent italy's colors. Cool thing to know:) My favorite pizza is mushroom pizza. Yep just mushrooms:)Women in Black-Wear white poppies which are hand made. The legions are in court because they are put out that they put them out at the same time as their red poppies. Come on now the world has room for both. I find that really sad and shameful!I made a nice roast on the 4th with yorkshire pudding gravy baby carrots and baby potatoes everyone loved it:) Yeah me:)A Michael Williams Statue was put up in Victoria it is temporary I believe still to be moved to a more permanent place but nice to be done. I have to say whew hoo to America's Most Wanted 20th season 911 captures, I am a hard core watcher it is the show of all shows!I'm watching Extreme Makover Home Edition I want the shirt from Pink Warriors I have to find out about getting one of those shirts, they help with brast cancer. Relay for life I would buy a shirt but walking for 5 days omg I would be done in, my brother might do that though. Phil said he would do it. I hate cancer it took away my grandmpa. They said to go on the web and go to http://www.abettercommunity.comBissell get a http://www.carosan.com gets rid of dust miteshttp://www.tryone.com http://www.firstroboticscanada.org http://www.eons.com http://www.tell-someone.com http://www.veryfunnyads.com http://www.nowpublic.com http://www.tomorrowsworld.org http://www.no2meth.ca http://www.manulifeincomeplus.com http://www.cheaters.com http://www.cancerrecovery.ca http://www.courttvnews.com http://www.wolfboys.ca http://www.livestrongportfolios.com http://www.datelinecrime.net http://www.operationhomefront.net http://www.squaredance.ca http://www.thriftyfoods.com http://www.londondrugs.ca http://www.mvparents.com http://www.orbitz.com http://www.ditech.com http://www.besaucy.ca http://www.oldfieldorchard.org http://www.scienceworld.ca http://www.creditunionsbc.com http://www.thermacare.com http://www.chtv.ca http://www.wholegrainoats.ca http://www.gnomewatch.com http://www.tcfarm.org http://www.endaids.ca http://www.torontofilmschool.ca http://www.belairtravel.com http://www.high.org http://www.carfax.com http://www.tostidos.ca http://www.lifenetwork.org http://www.zerocrashmonth.com http://www.builtfordtough.com http://www.tcfarm.org I wish BC to follow suit, April 2007 Alberta pharmacists can write prescriptions for people. Other provinces will be watching. God that would be so much easier than always going back for renawals. I been seeing alot of psychics and mediums I like on tv when I see them I will mention them here and there like Phil Jordan who is a Medium.K-KeepI-InteruptingD-DuringS-SleepSo Saddam is guilty of genocide and is sentenced to hanging. They figure appeals will be done by January and hanging may happen by februaury 2007. Saddam trembled and said after sentencing "God is Great". We all know Bush is happy and sees it as a good thing for their people. I haven't heard an official stement from Canadian prime minister. Tony Blair minister in Britian against death penalty for saddam and all and any cases. I think Saddam is hilarious, and an ass but I don't agree with the death penalty in any case, never have. I believe what goes around Karma will take care of.Jury clock has been being watched for the Cape Cod Case of Christa Worthington(fashion writer) Murdered and found with her unharmed 2yr old child alive next to her, where Christopher McCowen has been tried for first degree murder and aggravated rape. Defense say he was coerced into a confession because of low IQ. There is no video or taped confession just their word. Which is just one of my reasons for my reason of not convicting him. Not to mention these police had a narrow field of vision. A witness saw a white man leave the crime but Chris is Black. Things don't all add up with the evidence. I think they too quickly jumped to a black man and I couldn't convict him and feel good about it if I were on the jury.Corcoran prison-love the song a prisoner wrote and sings "15 to life"http://www.texasborderwatch.com has been set up to help people illegally crossing the border-what a joke. How sad does it have to get?I was deeply disturbed by Dr.Phil's show with Jeremy who so obviously is sexually abusing his daughter Kailie. Trying to outwit the lie detector test which we found out is 92% accurate. The detctive who gave the test believes he is guilty and Dr.Phil is helping to report him to all he can. I just feel so bad for his little girl and the videos of her crying killed me. To admit he has an email at analbastard@----.com says alot too. I hope the mother of his child to be is smart enough to walk away and never turn back. My God he is sick!Love the gecko on the geico commercials and the cavemen ones crack me up. The other ones I change the channel when they come on.Had right top molar pulled out wed nov 1st was supposed to have root canal but tooth was too far gone. Pain set in way worse as each day went on worse than when I had the tooth. Felt and looked like a big piece of tooth was still left over. Finally after throwing up and crying everyday I went back on the 8th to find out it was jaw bone jutting out. So They froze me which I whined about I was so tender. Then they broke the jutting out jaw bone and I freaked as I heard it cracking and then they used an exacto knife looking thing to shave down the bone. Needless to say I have been in massive PAIN, but seem to be healing this time.Dr.Bass has an interesting place I would love to see The Body Farm Forensic Anthropology Center a place to learn about human decaying at any given time. There are 30 bodies on the lot at any given time. I learned watching it that flies are only active in temps over 52 degrees.Mamie Van Daren she's beautiful and is aging so well, don't we all wish we could be like her? She married a 19yr old when she was 32. She really has been blessed! She so doesn't look to be in her 70's.I don't like the show Trading Spouses, I do however like the show Wife Swap.I've unfortunately gone into the picking phase again. I have 3 sores on my face, 2 on chin, 1 on side of face. A few on each arm and a couple on one leg. I hate that I do it in my sleep:( I finally got into the group I've been waiting to get into. DPT Group it is an 8 month group and 10 of us in it.Been throwing up ALOT! & Dry heaving I called Amson's office cause I want a scope I am wondering if it is possible I have an ulcer of course no one has called me back grrrr. I see my dr for the flu shot in a week or so so will mention it to her! I am sick more than I am well. I really do feel sometimes like I am being drugged:( I have NO SEX DRIVE!!! Poor Phil he finally has one and I just push him away I just don't want to be close to anyone as of late. I mean who wants to be close when your feeling sick??:(Judge Leslie Lewis shaved 10 yrs off a prison sentence off an admitted sexual predator who had 3 counts of sexual abuse towards a 7 year old in Utah. What the hell is she thinking?I see no usefulness in the pasta express either way you still have to boil the water right?Once again someone is loving the media attention ESCORT Mike Jones is just sucking up the media attention. I am proud of Reverand Ted Haggard for admitting he has a darker side in his life being involved with drugs and a male escort(Mike Jones [who outed him]). I think it's brave how he said it publicly even though he was outed. Mike you need to get a life, good God!Yet again another cruise has had an accident. A man was seen going overboard on carnival cruises sat nov 4 2006. Is it just me or is alot of cruise ships having things like this happening?Did you watch Criss Angel's celebrity seance at the armasosa hotel in death valley junction california room 34 where apparently a little girl named Mary died. I wasn't all that pulled into it and his quote at the end made me think even less "Do you believe in ghosts? I don" Criss Angel I do love Criss though I love how great he is with his illusions and magic it is unlike any other and he seems so down to earth. The one show I cry everytime I see is the one with the woodchipper I cry and cry and cry even though I know how it turns out his mom gets to me. I cry for her and I almost threw up once I felt so much for her. I don't know how she does it. He really is a great man to his family but I feel for his mom with each stunt he pulls:) I think his brother JD is pretty hot:) I liked watching Mark Chadwick a stunt coordinator teach Criss how to take a hit from a car-OUCH! I would love to go see him one day at Houdini's grave that he visits every year. Houdini died on Halloween I find that really interesting don't you? It seems Criss goes to Magick Castle in Hollywood California alot too I never even knew about that place till his show, would love to see him there too among others:) I was really upset I wanted to join the Criss Angel fan club but Phil got so worked up about it I deleted the webpage. He thinks I like Criss because I want to get jiggy with him but it's not just physical I love the great magic Criss does and the way he is with family and fans. I wish I so wish I could get Phil to understand that because it hurts me so much that he gets so worked up about something that isn't. Like Criss would just show up and take me to bed get real right?When I was younger I watched David Copperfiled alot, I hear he is doing a show in Vancouver soon, I wouldn't mind seeing him if he came to Victoria. I would so go see Criss if he came, but my brother says he doubts Criss would come to canada, that made me sad:(I love Kathryn Morris off of Cold Case she is a wonderful actress and seems really down to earth.It's wierd to see Camryn Manheim on Ghost Whisperer this year. I've always been a fan of hers. I want to get my ears done like hers:) Odd but true fact:) I've never played Marco Polo can someone please tell me how the hell this game works what is the point of it?I did not know amityvilee was in New york, another reason for me to go to new york huh Barb? I gotta get there one day soon I think about it all the time:) it's in oceanville?I want to try out that new antidepressant cymbalta is anyone else on it? Does it help? I am wondering if it really helps with the physical symptoms of depression, if it does that would be so damn great:)48hrs oct 28 2006-The Church of scientology Ellie "Perkins" Think it is crap they put down psychiatry killed by Jeremy now being treated for schizophrenia.I saw on the news not too long ago that our military is no longer gonna require people to pass the physical, they will now get passed on to a trainer. Also they apparently will be able to enroll at a younger age, WTF? I am bewildered by this!I am curious to see the documentary coming out on attempted suicide called THE BRIDGE alot of controversy apparently over it.Book: Fatal FamiliesMake A Wish FoundationThe Movie Loves Music Loves to Dance 2001 was a good movie; Patsy Kensit & Justin Louis. Kept me guessing till the end, way fucked up. Not many movies keep me intrigued lately this one did and watched it on the women's network:)Oh did you hear about the Meth bust that was so huge they said it will hugely affect colorado. They called it the Elmo bust as he had 4lbs of meth of just some of the meth they found in these guys. A 19yr old was the ring leader I heard about this on October 26 2006 I am just shocked by that news, poor elmo:(I found a new drink I like it's called VEX a blue drink hard blueberry, raspberry, lemonade, 7%vol. tastes like a blue freezie:)2 of the new shows I like this year is 20 good years and Till Death both are so funny I almost pee myself laughing, omg those are definetly hits this year!Lisa Williams-Life Among the DeadI love the song by Jewel- It's Gonna Be AlrightOther songs I want- I want a ManOkay I am getting hooked on Gene Simmons Family Jewels his kids are so remarkably normal. I love it, and his beautiful wife. I can't believe he had security stop him and not know who he was Holy Stupid Fucking People! Lady you gave canadian security a bad name not knowing who he was *hangs head in shame for our canadians* Ever heard of KISS? aaaaaarrrrrgggggghhhhhhhhh?I liked on More Haunted Houses- VJ Houseman*Psychic & Cari Roy*Psychic they were very good:)Voodoo Margaret Very good and interesting lady:) I have written here no one knows where baby but can't read the name I wrote but mom was Jane. Hull House used to help care for babies and mothers who had been turned away and had no where to go. There was a baby that was said to be a demon baby but was just born without limbs and they took it in. This story so touched my heart. I love stories like that. It is sick how cruel people can be just because the baby was missing it's limbs, made me cry. I am fascinated by the story of Sarah Winchester I want to know more. I want to go visit the place she had built which is now a tourist attraction. She was the heir to the winchester fortune which is guns and was bothered by the death of that. So she was somehow felt to build with the money she had and built an eccentric building. The building had no sense to it, tiny windows, no way to hallways ect. At some point apparently a hurricane took it down leaving 2 rooms and she took this as a sign to build backwards. Apparently she was taken with the number 13 which only fascinates me more and was used in building this building which would have things like 13 stairs and 13 windows ect. Her will had 13 parts and was signed 13 times. She slept in different rooms each nigh believing the spirits would not find her, however she did not elude them foever she slept her last night in one of the rooms. In her safe was found only 2 locks of hair the locks to her dead husband and child of long ago. That alone touches me. 13 touches me too as it is a very important number and beloved number in our family for many reasons and has touched our lives many times and probably will again.Oh that sucks Mary's ex boyfriend gets to go to disney I have always wanted to go:( No fair!